Really? And it wouldn't have looked suspicious if either of them had wanted to take it elsewhere? You just didn't do stuff like that in the sanctuary, especially when it was so packed. People loved to gossip here and Jo didn't want everyone and their mothers to know what had gone down.
She took another swig from her soda can, glancing down at it. Was it cherry? Huh, no wonder it tasted weird. She set the can back down on her knee. "No, I wouldn't have liked it," she answered honestly. What sane person would condone being lied to? No one Jo knew. "But you'd have lied in my place too, and you know it. It's not the kind of thing you say in front of a crowd, which was why I told you when we were -- more or less -- alone."
Did he really understand how it was like to kill for the first time? Because yes, it had changed her. In that split second it had changed her and she'd even been prepared to kill again, and kill Zurg, of all people... Simply because she'd been furious at him -- and at herself -- and thought it'd been his fault. She could never feel clean about what she'd almost done even if she used all the soap in Portal Breach to scrub herself with. She had honestly wanted to kill Zurg too in that moment too, and the very recollection of her feelings in that moment shocked her dumb. She didn't ever want to wind up in that situation again, not if she could help it.
She took another sip from hr soda, the fizzy zing bringing her mind back to sharpness, but the taste was stale in her mouth. "I prefer to forgive myself when I see your sister come talk with me." No, she couldn't forgive herself for killing someone and almost ending up killing someone else. But that was her problem. She could move past it if, and only if, she and Sonia managed to speak with each other.
Otherwise, she could not move on. It was as simple as that.
She took another swig from her soda can, glancing down at it. Was it cherry? Huh, no wonder it tasted weird. She set the can back down on her knee. "No, I wouldn't have liked it," she answered honestly. What sane person would condone being lied to? No one Jo knew. "But you'd have lied in my place too, and you know it. It's not the kind of thing you say in front of a crowd, which was why I told you when we were -- more or less -- alone."
Did he really understand how it was like to kill for the first time? Because yes, it had changed her. In that split second it had changed her and she'd even been prepared to kill again, and kill Zurg, of all people... Simply because she'd been furious at him -- and at herself -- and thought it'd been his fault. She could never feel clean about what she'd almost done even if she used all the soap in Portal Breach to scrub herself with. She had honestly wanted to kill Zurg too in that moment too, and the very recollection of her feelings in that moment shocked her dumb. She didn't ever want to wind up in that situation again, not if she could help it.
She took another sip from hr soda, the fizzy zing bringing her mind back to sharpness, but the taste was stale in her mouth. "I prefer to forgive myself when I see your sister come talk with me." No, she couldn't forgive herself for killing someone and almost ending up killing someone else. But that was her problem. She could move past it if, and only if, she and Sonia managed to speak with each other.
Otherwise, she could not move on. It was as simple as that.